Dawn is upon me , I do not feel irritable as I often do in this time though, I feel a sudden rush of calmness and ease ...not because I will lay soon , but because I feel very thankful for its silence it has brought with it this day. I find great comfort in standing out on my balcony looking over the empty streets of the city , just observing and reflecting on my thoughts which plague me . I find my ease in gazing into the moon which lingers and grapples onto night's solitude as I do as well. There are no busy humans crowding the sidewalks and shops as there is at night though. The only thing I hear in these moments are the tiny creatures scavenging and scurrying and this does not bother me anymore as I have grown used to it. I sit here typing sipping from my reserve this is a special treat for me for times like these ... as I do not have the desire to leave my dwelling to hunt ... I do not have the desire for human companionship . Morning will be here soon enough though and with it will bring the sun's hot glow and the busy little humans and this is but bittersweet , how I long to be like them someways and explore all the little shops ,and dine on fancy foods ...but the sun it has become my biggest distaste of course . I have been thinking a lot about what I would like to write in here next and I think it will be of my home , what I remember about it , as I find my mind growing tired I would like to record them before they start to fade away from me. I have a lot of things to catch up on this dawn before I lay but I don't feel compelled to do them , I am just tired and my bed is inviting to me in this moment.
I heard from a dear friend ,whom is still travelling to keep his nights fulfilled , he is but young yet. It makes me smile to remember those days in my life. I suppose I will respond to him in due time , when my heart feels a bit more committed to the task. I do not have anything to say right now I am just exhausted..........
Until the dawn ... la revedere....xx
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